Breaking Out of the Shell

It's been years since I last touched a blog, it feels so nostalgic and unfamiliar at the same time. 

I'm on my long summer holiday at the moment, and given my very sticky situation of not knowing when I would need to leave for the next chapter of my life, it isn't quite advisable to take up any job commitment. So I have been really free and bored (duh), hence a dear friend of mine suggested I start a blog. 

I wasn't at all against the idea of it, but I kept asking myself about a week ago "what can I write?". I haven't been having a very interesting life as a bum at home, part-time cook, and the occasional "tai-tai" job meeting up with my girlfriends. Then it hit me, MAKE IT INTERESTING! After all, I am a marketing student. 

So many of you might ask what does my blog URL mean? "The antevasin-foodie"? The last part is self-explanatory, but most of you might wonder what "antevasin" is. 

I chanced upon it while reading the novel Eat, Pray, Love, by Elizabeth Gilbert a year ago on my exchange to Croatia. The book made a great impact in my life to be honest, it's about striking a balance between love, goals, and life spiritually. One of the words that stuck with me for so long is this. 

It is a Sanskrit word, that means "one who lives at the borders". Apparently it originally was referring to people who chose to leave the safety of their homes and venture out to the edge of the forest where the spirits dwelt, in order to uncover the answers to the sacred in their lives. But in the book, it's described as "living in that shimmering line between your old thinking and your new understanding". 

Both meanings are quite relevant to where and how I am today. The past 3 years I have been moving from one place to another, never been able to be in one country continuously for 3 months. I'm either going home (KL) or in school (SG) or travelling (Europe), and now again the other half of the year may be spent in Asia or Europe. I don't know, and no one knows. The strange thing is, I don't complain. I love living "at the borders", having things being slightly unpredictable and exciting. I feel so very comfortable at the boarders simply because I feel safe knowing that there is something else over that border that is wonderful and worth exploring. But perhaps I still haven't found that constant in my life, or maybe, just maybe this is my constant. 

As for my thoughts, I realised I'm still indecisive to the old and new understandings I have learned the past year, what type of person do I wanna be? What values do I wanna hold on to...... So I'm currently in the neutral stage where I don't wanna be neither this nor that as of YET. 

So this marks my journey on writing about my random interests, my spiritual beliefs and my  accidental discoveries. Hope it entertains you now and then, and if it does make you fall asleep, do let me know =) I never liked being boring :p